After all this time, we’re leaving Friday. And what seemed would take forever now seems to heading for us with lightning speed.
So before I forget, let me share a few things about this moment.
Jennifer and I have been beyond busy. Getting the hall bathroom completed, converting the back bedroom which was essentially storage into a guest bedroom, and getting Penelope’s room ready has stretched us. I think we’ve handled it like champs. I imagine what this would have been like 5 years ago when we initially inquired into adopting from China. Chaos is the word that keeps coming to mind. People say you’re ready when it happens. It’s happening and we’re ready.
Either those people in my life are going through difficult times or I’m more receptive to other’s situations. Two women I know have miscarried, one has had to put their cat to sleep, another is on the verge of doing the same with their longtime canine companion. Another friend is going through both a divorce and a breakup (yeah, it’s complicated). So much hurt. And we are about to embark on the next great journey in our lives. Together.
People say I’m lucky for what I have in my life. I don’t disagree. I wouldn’t trade what I have for anything in the world. The love between Jennifer and I has grown, experienced difficulty, flourished, and expanded. And it only gets better. Deeper. More meaningful.
Now we’re adding a child to our lives. A child who will have experienced more separation and loss in her 25 months than Jennifer and I have in our combined lifetimes. It’s my hope and prayer that her time until now will be a rich ground upon which she can soak up the love that we have and will give to her. That she will flourish and find her way in this world. That she realize her life is her own and the choices she makes matter. That she is adored and loved by so many. The love is overpowering and moves me to tears at inopportune times.
We love you P. Coming to get you and bring you home. See you soon.